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picked this up on Tumblr, where I think you're supposed to have people pick the questions but meh. I like this list better than the classic questionnaire I've used before

End of the year Asks

  1. Song of the year? I Don’t Wanna Dance with Nobody by Sub-Radio
  2. Album of the year? I don’t think I listened to a full album that was new-to-me this year. I feel like singles are bigger than ever, and between that and my not being particularly connected to drivers of new music (other than Spotify) I just don’t discover or listen to albums end-to-end.
  3. Favorite musical artist / group you started listening to this year? I think I technically discovered Sub-Radio last year, so it would have to be Kishi Bashi. I went to his film Omoiyari at SIFF Docs Fest, kind of on a whim, and it was quite good.
  4. Movie of the year? Recency bias, but god damn Godzilla Minus One is amazing. Crying at a monster movie over a dude with PTSD was definitely not on my bingo card for 2023.
  5. TV show of the year? Oof. There were all the queer love stories - Our Flag Means Death, Good Omens, Interview with the Vampire. The one-two punch of Strange New Worlds and Lower Decks (and the crossover!). There was my indoctrination into dropout.tv. I think, in spite of being uneven overall (no, the musical episode wasn’t good) it would have to be Strange New Worlds.
  6. Episode of tv or webisode that defined the year for you? Probably the one that’s been quoted constantly in my house since it first aired: Lower Decks “I Have No Bones Yet I Must Flee”. Moopsy!
  7. Favorite actor of the year? While not technically a 2023 joint, I watched it in 2023 - Eric Bogosian in Interview with the Vampire was a favorite performance.
  8. Game of the year? Jedi Survivor. It’s always good to be a Jedi, and the storytelling in this one was top-notch.
  9. Best month for you this year? This year was complicated. It might have been January, when I went to Disneyland with [personal profile] mimerki.
  10. Something that made you cry this year? Well, my best friend died and that generated a lot of tears both before and after. My runner-up for “movie of the year” is Dungeons & Dragons: Honor Among Thieves. I encourage folks to watch it, it’s sweet and funny. But if you have seen it: I saw it after [personal profile] mimerki had started palliative care, and the end absolutely wrecked me. (I do not recommend ugly crying in an n95 mask, it gets hard to breathe.) And she died the next day, so yeah
  11. Something you want to do again next year? If I can find the time and money, I’d love to do a quick trip to Disneyland and get C to Galaxy’s Edge. It’s really not hard to do from here and I love how walkable it is inside and out.
  12. Talk about a new friend you made this year Not something I managed: first I was being very covid-cautious, then I was very sad (and busy), then I was just busy.
  13. How was your birthday this year? Dismal. I had covid and lost my sense of taste for a couple weeks.
  14. Favorite book you read this year? The Hands of the Emperor by Victoria Goddard. On the one hand, it’s a fantasy novel about implementing UBI, and burnout, and friendship. It’s also about someone who leaves home and is successful in ways that aren’t meaningful to their family of origin. (While I think it could have used a ruthless edit, I also think that might have stripped out most of what is good about it. It’s just a long warm bath of a book.)
  15. What’s a bad habit you picked up this year? Buying coffee and a pastry way too often (because neither of us could manage to consistently plan for breakfast).
  16. Post a picture from the beginning of the year [the Millennium Falcon in a spaceport setting with rock spires in the background]
  17. Post a picture from the end of the year
    [the view from Kerry Park in Seattle, featuring the Space Needle and Mt Rainier]
  18. A memorable meal this year? Our anniversary was a significant one and we kind of forgot about it, then managed to snag a last-minute reservation at The Herbfarm a few days after. They were absolutely brilliant with C’s dietary needs. It’s totally worth the money.
  19. What’re you excited about for next year? I remembered our anniversary earlier this time, and we finally snagged a reservation for a cabin at a resort on the Pacific Coast that’s well-known for being dog friendly. Looking forward to walking the beach and/or watching the waves roll in by the fire.
  20. What’s something you learned this year? When you die in the US, you become a business for tax purposes. The SSN is retired, and the estate gets an EIN just like a business.
  21. What’s something new about your place of residence (room, home, or general location) now vs the start of the year? My whole place of residence is new! I am sitting in front of my fireplace right now, looking at the lights of the cityscape out my window. It’s awesome
  22. Favorite place you visited this year? Galaxy’s Edge. If you love Star Wars, it's a delight. (yes, I really liked Disneyland)
  23. If you could send a message to yourself back on the first day of the year, what would it be? You always feel better after you get some exercise, don’t skip it.
  24. Did you keep any New Year’s Resolutions? I don’t think I made any
  25. Did you create any characters (in games, art, or writing) this year? Describe one Currently playing Worlds Without Number with the Friday group. Our party is all from a somewhat isolated coastal island and we’re slowly exploring the wider world. I rolled randomly for pretty much everything and then crafted a character based on the stats. So he’s Buck, the butcher’s apprentice; he’s strong and kind but not very bright. I found a picture of a rugby player that I really like for him - square-headed and plain with a great smile.
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we finally made an order with Saint Javelin for some fun swag that supports humanitarian aid in Ukraine. (for US peeps, the prices are in CAD.) i grew up on a farm* so one of the things i got was a sticker inspired by this and other Ukranian farmers towing away military equipment with tractors.

an incompetent person at work is getting fired for being incompetent. i might have felt bad about it a couple weeks ago because they were a nice person who seemed eager. but at this point i can't wait for them to be gone so i can stop worrying about what they will break next. maybe i'll find time to write a locked post when the dust settles.

holy shit the Obi-Wan Kenobi teaser trailer dropped. i have read novels upon novels worth of Kenobi fanfic during the pandemic and am heavily emotionally invested in the character... so I am both thrilled and terrified by this thing. it reminds me of waiting for Wonder Woman. i'm worried that it's going to retcon his final scene in Star Wars in some awkward way, among other dumb things Disney is capable of. (and i know there's stuff that just isn't happening here; he's not going to have a cry about Satine and if we ever do find out what happened to Korkie it will be elsewhere.)

one of the side-effects of the war in Ukraine is that C and i are having rich conversations about geopolitics and the Cold War. a) the conversations are just good b) this is totally how we ended up dating originally, talking for hours about this kind of shit. so while everything is awful, this is also nostalgic and by association kind of sexy?

i am kind of in love with what sounds like a Goth cover album that i would have worked into my college radio show every week but is actually the Chipmunks on 16 speed.



*insert rant here about John Deere's current practices and also, hey it's Ukranian hackers that help farmers around the world do their own tractor maintenance

Ukraine

Feb. 24th, 2022 08:54 pm
ironymaiden: (gah Haley)
I said this was going to happen after we didn't respond to Russia invading Georgia. I said it again when they took the Crimean peninsula.

I am a child of the cold war; 40 years ago I was losing sleep over the thought of war with Russia, 30 years ago I thought I was safe for good.
ironymaiden: (fuck it)
2021 was A Year. American democracy almost died, my father and brother-in-law did die, we got vaccinated but ultimately it didn't change our lives enough. (it did, a bit - we did get to see friends again, a couple soccer games, a few movies, some meals out...but then delta.) i ended up in four RPGs (multiple campaigns, but a consistent four games across three groups of gamers). we stayed on two more of the San Juans. i got serious about fountain pens again.

not previously chronicled here:

  • Mom started dating (that's okay) a racist anti-vaxxer (FUCK NO). i told her how i felt about that person before things got where they are. it wrecked me for a while, but due to distance i can easily avoid any interaction with that piece of shit. she's had a horrible several years so i'm not going to have a fight about it. that said, i'm sending Mom an "in honor of Dad's Name" card for every donation i make to SPLC until it ends.

  • I had increasing problems with concentration and executive function as the year wore on. I've been on some drugs for almost two months; I feel like I'm doing better and C says he sees the change as well.


January
"finally caught up on John Wick tonight (only recently did we agree that home video with lots of cuddles and the ability to pause would allow C to get through the wife and dog death in the first film)."
Jan 6 terrified me
I made a Helsinki Complaint Choir ringtone (which still delights me)
I watched the presidential inauguration and it was nice
We ordered a bunch of new sheets
Everyone was into sea shanties
Leela was attacked by an off-leash dog

February
"i have to deliver a presentation themed on "a day in the life" tomorrow."
I started having four RPGs in flight at once.
We had snow (always remarkable in Seattle)
I started making bath bombs

March
"character B has made it to third level. i am a bit surprised that i'm still on character 2."
Spent our anniversary on Lopez Island
Had my first bus ride in over a year
Started playing DJ with background music for the Tuesday/Friday games

April
"C is eligible for vaccine as of yesterday."
I got an electric spinning wheel
Both of us started our covid vaccine series
SIFF was remote and I hated it
I had a health scare
I did a very high-visibility, high-impact project at work
We got a new tent

May
"Concerning Hobbits always lifts my spirits."
Vaccination complete
Dad died (and I spent some time in PA)
I got an improved title/pay bump/stock grant

June
"my mother-in-law wished us a happy holiday today."
We went camping on Shaw Island
I did a bunch of spinning with my new wheel
We watched Ted Lasso
There was a massive heat wave

July
"I finished The Left-handed Booksellers of London and my Kindle let me know there will be a new Old Kingdom book soon."
I went to PA again, this time on a trip that had been planned for months. I got to swim.
I worked on a coding project for work that would impact all of our users and there was a (positive) management shakeup
On one eventful day I had dim sum for the first time in two years, saw a soccer game in person, and my brother-in-law died

August
"C: i voted for the indian"
we have a primary election with two Native candidates for mayor
i get a new fountain pen and inks
i find out that teaberry == wintergreen and i order a plant
i did most of the Carpe Diem challenge

September
"a lot of long-awaited library holds came through for me, some wonderful and one remarkably disappointing."
I finally read ✨Murderbot✨!
The House on the Cerulean Sea 🤮
I go back to the office for the first time

October
"a while ago i complained about how TJ Klune's The House on the Cerulean Sea didn't work for me."
I didn't write a lot - I went to Origins in Columbus and spent time with friends from college. it was planned before covid had started to surge again and i had a lot of conflicted feelings about the whole thing. ultimately it was a wonderful trip.
i get my first covid test - negative.
I see a psychiatrist

November
"apparently the pandemic was hard on the fancy nail nerds."
I start my drug regimen
Thanksgiving plans get scuttled over covid exposure
we made so much turkey stock
I get to see [personal profile] philotera
Stephen Sondheim died

December
I failed to post. It was a hair-on-fire kind of time at work.
I went to the rescheduled ECCC
I had my second covid test - negative
C went to PA for family stuff and that sucked
I ordered a new fountain pen
I bought fountain-pen-friendly notebooks
West Side Story!!!
We had people for Christmas dinner, first time to have more than one guest in almost two years
Minor covid exposure scare (natch) - negative
It snowed on boxing day
I sorted through a bunch of boxes in storage, which led to sorting, packing, and shipping a box of photos to a scanning service
I had debit card fraud - bank caught it, I got a rad new card that looks like a cassette tape out of the deal.
ironymaiden: (politics)
i'm just staring at the screen now. i made the mistake of looking at impeachment news and even the smallest amount of it winds me up and stops me from being functional.
ironymaiden: (politics)
I've avoided US news for three days. My muscles are still in knots but I'm sleeping better. I won't be able to look away Wednesday but I'll deal with that when it comes.
ironymaiden: animation of the Dowager Countess from Downton Abbey, with the quote "First electricity, now telephones. Sometimes I feel as if I were living in an H.G. Wells novel." (dowager)
i'm glad that i have Monday off. i had a moment today at work where i was literally staring at the screen, paralyzed, unable to remember how to read a file into a python dictionary (i.e. a pretty basic thing that i learned how to do in my intro class almost a year ago and have done many many times). C called it: it's anxiety. i am having a bit of a crisis since all the worst outcomes i imagined in 2016 are manifesting one by one.

also my right arm is pretty sad (stress tension); the knittas suggested switching up my mouse hand. since i use an ergo mouse normally, i ordered a lefty. i hooked it up tonight and so far the buttons are intuitive but doing things like selecting is awkward. either it's going to improve my coordination with my left hand or i'm going to get way more proficient with keyboard navigation. either or both is good.

the other day i put some of the bavarian cream mix into popsicle molds. it's pretty damn good frozen. do they still make Jell-O pudding pops?* because it's like a much better version of the vanilla pudding pops, without the icy shell. talk about a specific sense memory sticking around, it's been a good 30 years since i've had one.


*those make me think of Bill Cosby because he was the face of the launch ad campaign. it's interesting to remember that rapist used to be America's dad.
ironymaiden: (cactus)

i'm starting to think that i shop more when i feel uncertain. i had a burst of lockdown shopping in the spring of 2020 (i think a lot of us did) and i realized that it has started again.

in the last week:

  • new fitted sheets (needed them but did i really need to try out three kinds from two different vendors?)

  • popsicle molds (these were unavailable during the last burst of shopping, probably due to shipping issues with China)

  • a two-year subscription to Interweave Knits

  • a POUND of a tea flavor i liked in a free sample

ironymaiden: (gah Haley)
just unfriended another cousin on Facebook. this one was the closest to my age and a beloved childhood friend. she's an Evangelical, but she's never been openly racist or homophobic and has been pretty cordial in response to questions and challenges to her right-wing memes.

I hoped that perhaps after last week something would change. it has not, and it's become clear (based on posts against deplatforming and some conspiracy shit about the election) that she's not in a place where I can agree to disagree or just scroll by. I know I should tell her why but I don't have the heart to engage.

she's just lost now.
ironymaiden: (politics)
i haven't been productive in any way since Wednesday.

been scrolling r/LeopardsAteMyFace. not sure if it's good for me or not.


[image of tweet with text: Hey @FLOTUS Great news. Twitter just banned your husband. Your anti cyber bullying campaign is working.]
ironymaiden: Animated gif of baby Groot and detonator (blow it up)
i think this is a Gen X thing, i can't seem to come up with the right search terms to trace the origin/timing.

my memory is that there was an organized effort to replace the use of "mentally retarded" with "special", which had the unintended result of kids calling someone "special" as a pejorative where they used to use the R-slur.

i am a bad person and had a solid laugh over Trump calling the rioters "very special" yesterday.
ironymaiden: (ugly american)
i've been very careful about metering my exposure to US politics in the last four years. i never ignored what was happening, i only restricted how and when i caught up - so that i could work and sleep and not grow an ulcer.

today i broke and turned on the news. no work got done this afternoon, and tonight i'll probably be listening to the Senate and House until they finish confirming Biden. there have been some pretty epic speeches so far and i'm not *sure*, but i think that the rest of the results challenges are going to not happen or fizzle. lots of congresspeople talking about how they have changed their speeches and changed their thinking. good job traitors, you've scared off your political support.

at least Twitter has finally gotten off their asses. perhaps if they had acted sooner no one would have been hurt or died today.
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I am tired and cold. Can't seem to get the temperature right in the apartment today. I'm tired because political news is scaring me. Tomorrow is going to be a bad day between the electoral college vote and results from the Georgia runoff coming in.

I found out the source of the rocketbook. Apparently my grandboss got them for the whole team. (This entry has been written by hand for OCR.) I'm still thinking about ways to make use of the thing. I'm trying to look at backlit screens less and make variety in the ways I use my hands that they are functional for fun as well as work.

I've been working on knitting a sweater, one that been a UFO for a few years. I'm about an inch away from the length I want then I just need to do the sleeves. It looks like I'll have enough yarn to finish, which is good since it's discontinued (25% linen / 25% silk / 50% wool).
ironymaiden: a trash dumpster with a happy face, on a background of sparkly stars. a fire is burning in the dumpster. (dumpsterfire)
i tried to do a 365366 challenge this year, and i lost. i was doing great until March. i stopped numbering entries after UW locked down and i had my first online class. i stopped posting daily in May. by that time tracking non-events and losses got to be more than i could do.

i'm glad i preserved a timeline of the pandemic closing in and the stages of my world narrowing, but i wasn't able to make it a project like [personal profile] scarlettina with her paper diaries. i had a bunch of productive plans for this time of isolation - i was going to make tons of masks, i was going to knit a blanket. i made enough masks for C and i to use, but i found making masks to be depressing instead of making me feel like i was helping so i never made ones to share. the blanket, i let myself take a break in August when we went camping and haven't felt like picking it up since.

sometimes writing things down is just Too Much. somewhere in the summer i had a pretty crushing experience at work (and summoned up the guts to call my mentor and my boss on the carpet for it, which was a major milestone for me). within a week of my birthday my mom had to get a pacemaker and there was a covid outbreak in my dad's nursing home. Dad's case was mild, Mom says she's sleeping better than she has in years. more recently Dad's seizures have reappeared, but they've adjusted his drug cocktail and he's stayed out of the hospital.

i will also note here that i feel like the Bad Year frequency is increasing - 2009, 2012, 2016, 2018, 2020.

January
"i've been wanting to post more. let's see if i do in 2020."
my first automation at work goes live
i set C up with a remote PC for gaming
i signed up for Intro to Python and had my first few classes
my brother & wife were in town for MLA
13th Doctor
Parasite <3
Little Women 🤮

February
"we finished The Good Place. what an impressive run, i'm delighted."
Cats 🤮
switched internet providers and increased bandwidth (remarkable timing)
won a fitbit
got approved to go to a conference in Las Vegas
automated another thing at work
attended first Sounders matches of the year
state of emergency declared in Washington

March
"my mom called today to ask about the state of emergency, C's mom called today and had no idea what was going on."
travel ban at work, conference trip cancelled
work goes remote
class goes remote
i retreat into Obitine fic
last haircut
Dad's home closes to visitors
last in-person game night
[personal profile] philotera beats border closures and gets out of the US
last dinner in a restaurant, last bus ride
knit night goes remote
SIFF cancelled
local coffee shop closes
finished intro class
got a big monitor
became an FTE

April
"i know many people (for good reason) dislike the shenanigans that happen today. but i always look forward to the event in r/AskHistorians, the best (aka very tightly regulated and informative) subreddit."
another work automation project
Adam Schlesinger died
started making masks
started Python certificate program
blanket begins
green hair

May
"at the beginning of this year i was trying to write an entry every day."
bought a standing desk and created workspace in the bedroom.
started recording Agents of SHIELD
big release at work.

June
"tonight is our third night of curfew."
got a massage (that felt a little foolhardy at the time and i haven't gone back)
did a video call for Father's Day
ravelry did a site redesign and we all had a meltdown

July
"this has been a difficult day for me emotionally the past few years. i can't say that my country has changed, only that i have had to face the worst of us in ways that i was once able to ignore."
i struggle with being able to read books
i struggle with Object-Oriented Programming
i flip out over people having a birthday party and singing
[personal profile] steampoof dies
i get turkish towels

August
"i tried to watch the Hugos live, but i only made it to the first winner - GRRM rambling was just excruciating, and apparently i tuned out before he really went off the deep end."
we go camping; it's literally the first time i have entered a vehicle or left the neighborhood since March
i stop working on the blanket
i start reading romance novels
Chadwick Boseman dies
i get a split keyboard

September
"we started getting AT&T TV (it's streaming cable channels) this year."
i discover that my hoarded Agents of SHIELD episodes (because i watch it with [personal profile] mimerki, damn it) have been silently disappearing due to being held for too long
tiny waffle maker enters my life
record-breaking poor air quality from wildfire smoke
RBG dies

October
"i have struggled with reading since mid-march."
i do Pinktober
i get a kigurumi
our neighbor has a heart attack. first time i'm in someone else's house since March

November
"it's been a tense few weeks between the election and a reorg at The Eyrie."
i wrote a Discord bot
i got a better desk and chair
Mom gets a pacer
we have Thanksgiving at home
Dad gets covid
i finish my Python classes
i record and start watching Hallmark movies

December
"morning getting dressed thought:
I knit these Doctor Who socks while waiting in line at Disney World."
Hallmark movies
cleaning
So Many Romance Novels
discount ham
mysterious rocketbook

and that was pretty much that.
ironymaiden: (gah Haley)
no. it's too fucking soon.
ironymaiden: (gah Haley)
cut for sad news about a child )

less good

Feb. 12th, 2018 04:49 pm
ironymaiden: (gah Haley)
the last couple days have been hard.

Dad is too weak to walk and while he has strong grip and can lift his arms he has real trouble filling a spoon or aiming it at his mouth.

he is bordering on combative when he can't get what he wants. cut for bodily function talk ) he starts thrashing around and refusing to listen and saying odd stuff.

"Trump! I need to Trump!"
"Master and Commander. I have a 26lb master and commander."

he is different than he was after the first surgery of this trip (or my memories of previous surgeries) and I am starting to get scared.

* * *

Dr. G has a lab coat with frog closures. I don't think I've seen that before.

* * *

Eventually he's going to move from the regular hospital to inpatient rehab, which is in the building next door. I'm glad of this - he will get wheeled across a skybridge instead of loaded in a transport, and his medical team won't change.

I spent part of today buying groceries and a lunch bag so that we can spend less on eating out. Mom is starting to fret about the cost of being in Pittsburgh that we're past the original hospital discharge date and there's not a clear exit. I have already told work that I won't be able to attempt to log in until late this week.
ironymaiden: (emo kylo)
TSA wants you there 2 hours before your flight. But they're not open two hours before your flight.

***
At gate with bacon egg and cheese bagel. Dunkin Donuts guy was profoundly confused that I said no to coffee. (I hope to sleep.)

This is the first non-snack food I have eaten in 24 hours. Please sit well.

Lots of folks here who slept in the terminal. I didn't really sleep at the hotel, too wound up. But I did have my own toilet, and a shower, and privacy for crying. I thought I was through that, and I almost got through the call to let down mom and dad until they told me they made me an apple dumpling. And the thought of my mom's pastry going cold on the table did me in. Hell, I'm crying about now.

I just heard someone say they haven't slept for two days. Every person at this gate has a story like mine.
ironymaiden: (bondage)
woke up at 3am. arrived at airport to discover that a) security theater has reached ridiculous new heights (I got a pat down for wearing cargo pants) and b) my flight was delayed FIVE HOURS.

my one-hop is now a two-hop, but I'll be arriving at a teeny regional that is closer to my final destination. yay for less driving, boo for the tiny plane into the Appalachians that has historically made me puke.
ironymaiden: (neutron star)

  1. NORWESCON, I am going there after work. Imma get some science on and be
    among my people and have a hotel weekend with C in the sekrit boutique
    hotel behind the con hotel.

  2. unless they have changed the cable package, that hotel includes new
    Doctor Who .

  3. DW is easier to make mobile than eljay was. I'm feeling oddly thankful
    for the stupid TOS waking things up.

  4. seriously, Facebook is so stressful. I am so much happier here. I got
    to rec books and tv shows and talk about why Sam is the hero of the LOTR
    books.

  5. reorg at work puts me on exciting sekrit project.

  6. the MtBwaA festival of [personal profile] buhrger begins, now with more [livejournal.com profile] ethnomuse!

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