the truth

[ironymaiden]

someone mentioned yesterday that i hadn't been posting lately, and i realized that i've been a little quiet. there are big thoughts smashing around my head, and no good place to put them.

i've got too much information in my head this week about humans using other humans. it's something i abhor. i respect that it's a part of daily life, but i like to think that when i get something from someone else i am offering something of value in return. it's hard for me to live in a world where business is tangled with personal in order to serve the business. or perhaps i don't care so much about the manipulation if there's a consistent standard set.

so, since there's a few unrelated things going on here, i can just say that i hate it when people are completely self-serving and mean. it doesn't matter if i know the victim well or not.

i also have no comfort in the knowledge that i am right or have the moral high ground if it means pain for someone else.

i spent brunch this morning asking C to give me some happy examples of human nature. he didn't do too well. but as i think about it, last night was a grand example of goodness, where a whole lot of people got together and did something nice for scarlettina as she starts her hundred days. lots of people were there, and it was written up all over; i can't do it justice here. the thing is that we got together and did something a little absurd (each guest donated a nonperishable food item or other useful treat) to diffuse the dread associated with unemployment. perhaps we all could use a little more of that spirit in our lives. there was a little love with every can of cranberry sauce, bag of cat treats, and postage stamp. that's the kind of truth i want right now.

Comments

[scarletbronte.livejournal.com]

I haven't properly thanked you for all the work you did yesterday, cleaning up the place...and so - Thank You!

Also, the bbq was delicious! I hope you'll share that recipe for the citrus chicken and the beef marinade...

Here's to goodness...

[mimerki.livejournal.com]

I really do believe that joy shared is joy increased, and pain shared is pain lessened. I don't always succeed at acting like it, but I try.

I may or may not have successfully sent you email. Either way, know that you are loved here.

[scarlettina.livejournal.com]

I'm with mimerki: you're loved, my dear, and I'm hugely grateful for last night's grand kindness which, if you recall, was instigated by yourownself. There is goodness in the world. As a recipient of same, I'm here to tell you truly.

[butterflydrming.livejournal.com]

there are big thoughts smashing around my head, and no good place to put them

I truly understand that statement. Can you break them into little pieces, the kind that are okay to parcel out? I just crawled out of a rotten week by inflicting myself on half-a-dozen different people, not advice or venting so much as weeding.

Kindness is more of an effort for some than for others, but it doesn't mean less when it comes easily, or even when it's unintentional. Even cruel and petty people can be kind to their friends, and selfish people can even benifit others when fulfilling their own desires. What matters more than the origin, to me, is what happens from the echoing waves. (The flipside is that kindness can also be cruel.)

[ironymaiden]

What matters more than the origin, to me, is what happens from the echoing waves. (The flipside is that kindness can also be cruel.)

on the nose. C and i joke (but it's not entirely joking) that we hurt each other the most when we try to do what we think makes the other one happy. i wish that i knew when following my impulses was right and and when i should pause and consider.

[butterflydrming.livejournal.com]

i wish that i knew when following my impulses was right and and when i should pause and consider

If you find the Rosetta Stone for that, share it with me. "To thine own self be true" doesn't work out.