now the summoning circle is on the sinister side

i'm glad that i have Monday off. i had a moment today at work where i was literally staring at the screen, paralyzed, unable to remember how to read a file into a python dictionary (i.e. a pretty basic thing that i learned how to do in my intro class almost a year ago and have done many many times). C called it: it's anxiety. i am having a bit of a crisis since all the worst outcomes i imagined in 2016 are manifesting one by one.

also my right arm is pretty sad (stress tension); the knittas suggested switching up my mouse hand. since i use an ergo mouse normally, i ordered a lefty. i hooked it up tonight and so far the buttons are intuitive but doing things like selecting is awkward. either it's going to improve my coordination with my left hand or i'm going to get way more proficient with keyboard navigation. either or both is good.

the other day i put some of the bavarian cream mix into popsicle molds. it's pretty damn good frozen. do they still make Jell-O pudding pops?* because it's like a much better version of the vanilla pudding pops, without the icy shell. talk about a specific sense memory sticking around, it's been a good 30 years since i've had one.


*those make me think of Bill Cosby because he was the face of the launch ad campaign. it's interesting to remember that rapist used to be America's dad.