ECCC Saturday
Aug. 20th, 2022 10:46 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ironymaidenI have a lot to unpack from today. I spent almost my whole day in the Main Stage - Our Flag Means Death cast, then Twisted Toonz, then the (unmissable, most important) Chris Eccleston.
someone's twitter thread of clips from the OFMD panel. there's SO MUCH there about being queer, surviving at different ages, being yourself, fanfic and fanart. also, they took a group photo of the dozens of people wearing The Shirt.
Twisted Toonz this year was The Breakfast Club, wherein the performances were great as always but the material was meh for me. and it got me thinking about my relationship with John Hughes films... probably the only one that I truly like is Ferris Bueller's Day Off and that's about the adventure and not about the feels (if I think too hard I HATE Ferris).
seeing Chris Eccleston, though, that was all feels. i wasn't prepared for how moved i would be to see him, to hear him talking about his life in a raw way, to know that his explosive performance in Dalek was fueled by his rage and pain after seeing his father with dementia in the hospital. his absolute joy at being part of the history that led to Jodie Whittaker taking the role, how thrilled he is to see Ncuti Gatwa, the way he credited writers over and over as being the source of the quality of his work, how it took all this time for him to appreciate that he had influenced a generation of children who are now in their twenties. (fuck i'm old.) anyway, writing about it hours later is making me cry again, i was wrecked by the time the panel was over and had to spend a while pulling myself together before i could get a bus home. (crying in a filter mask sucks shitstained donkey balls, but i wouldn't have gone at all without the mask so there it is.)
i've been thinking about who else would set me off like that. Tom Baker for sure, maybe Carrie Fisher if she had survived long enough for me to see her. Mark Hamill? i often cry at concerts (because music) but i think this is the first time i was shaken by Q&A with an actor. curious about other people who have had surprisingly big emotions around actors and other creatives.
someone's twitter thread of clips from the OFMD panel. there's SO MUCH there about being queer, surviving at different ages, being yourself, fanfic and fanart. also, they took a group photo of the dozens of people wearing The Shirt.
Twisted Toonz this year was The Breakfast Club, wherein the performances were great as always but the material was meh for me. and it got me thinking about my relationship with John Hughes films... probably the only one that I truly like is Ferris Bueller's Day Off and that's about the adventure and not about the feels (if I think too hard I HATE Ferris).
seeing Chris Eccleston, though, that was all feels. i wasn't prepared for how moved i would be to see him, to hear him talking about his life in a raw way, to know that his explosive performance in Dalek was fueled by his rage and pain after seeing his father with dementia in the hospital. his absolute joy at being part of the history that led to Jodie Whittaker taking the role, how thrilled he is to see Ncuti Gatwa, the way he credited writers over and over as being the source of the quality of his work, how it took all this time for him to appreciate that he had influenced a generation of children who are now in their twenties. (fuck i'm old.) anyway, writing about it hours later is making me cry again, i was wrecked by the time the panel was over and had to spend a while pulling myself together before i could get a bus home. (crying in a filter mask sucks shitstained donkey balls, but i wouldn't have gone at all without the mask so there it is.)
i've been thinking about who else would set me off like that. Tom Baker for sure, maybe Carrie Fisher if she had survived long enough for me to see her. Mark Hamill? i often cry at concerts (because music) but i think this is the first time i was shaken by Q&A with an actor. curious about other people who have had surprisingly big emotions around actors and other creatives.
